Worries

... they never get over, do they? Maybe it is that I choose to worry.

It's time to get my medical tests done... and just when I thought I was getting a really good deal out of life, life's back at me, at my throat this time - compensating for the highs. Maybe I have been too fortunate. Now I'm just getting too cynical.

Anyways, so like I was saying, I had to get some test done for disease X. What should have been a routine test resulting in no response from my body, or at the very best a minimal response, has turned into the my latest obsession. My body has chosen to give an all out response. A response that most doctors seem to shudder to find in their patients. Extensive disapproval and a barrage of other tests. Due tomorrow. Implying that I fast till 12 noon. A look suggesting that my good fortune has finally turned around, sending a chill down my spine. Not quite, but almost. Still - Shiver.

Not quite a NDE (Near Death Experience) but effectively, this trip to the doctor's has converted me into a believer or at the very least made me aware of my hypocrisy. God, I say, If you exist, here's your opportunity to prove it. I wait till after the tests tomorrow to decide if I'm an agnostic or a believer.

Of course, I still have to get the tests done, but that won't stop my mind from fearing the worst. Not 'the' worst, but one of the worse worsts. For there are other worries which will certainly qualify the adjective worst.

But, I digress for I have the attention span of a goldfish. I am a bit of a hypochondriac. Some of ou may vouch for it. Shortly after, I started feeling out of breath. A climb up a flight of stairs resulted in my panting heavily.

If I weren't so worried right now, I would have found all this absolutely hilarious. I still do, but for the life of me, I can't laugh. Not right now.

So anyways, I think these tests will take some time. And there are more too. Thanks to wikipedia, I now know what exactly each test does and what it's outcome should be. In happier times I would have thanked wiki, but now its just fuelling the hypochondria in me.

I shall hope for the best tomorrow, in the meanwhile, I Fret...